I woke up slowly this morning and sat in the bathroom feeling lifeless. I had a long day yesterday that included going to the movies and Knott’s Berry Farm with my autistic adult son. He had a melt down while I was trying to find parking at Knott’s . He threw a spray bottle at me while I was driving. His meltdown triggered me because I do not know what to do to make things linear for him because the world does not operate that way; and because they can involve acts of aggression I cannot avoid as this one did since I was driving. I let him verbally have it and said things I should not say. Nonetheless, we were able to ride his favorite ride i.e. Calico Train and we left. He receives so much attention, and he loves it each time. A cool evening made it pleasant as well. Our evening ended better and I was able to calm down. I know what to do now to avoid that happening again.
Sunday school was amazing as we learned about Jesus’ teaching of working on the Sabbath Day under the Mosaic law. I sort of watched online church, but, was preoccupied with tiredness and kind of fell asleep.
When I awakened, I checked my soap making project of lavender rosemary donkey milk soap. Yes! Donkey milk. It came out really well.
I have a difficult time staying on a particular task because I see so many artisans doing such amazing work and I realize I am not anywhere close to having their talents and skills. I was watching PBS and tuned to a craft show. One of the artisans was discussing the fact that it takes many years to perfect a craft and that he was self-taught as I am.
I also learned that artisans depend on collectors to showcase their work. I have always dreamed of having my art in a museum. I have no specialty but have narrowed things down to just focusing on jewelry making, sewing totes, soap making and crocheting prayer shawls.
My task is to have my items become visible. I have listed items on Etsy but learned that they have millions of artisans there; but my intent is to become visible, not to necessarily sell. I am financially stable through God’s favor!
I think my story is important because of all of the tragedies I have endured and yet still I can create. I have not succumbed to ending my life, and I think it is because I am born to create even on the Sabbath day. I want my story to be everlasting and recorded in history.
The thought came to me today that the reason why God rested on the sabbath was so He could create his next masterpiece! We need a day of quietness so our minds can do what they are intended to do which is to generate ideas to help mankind and share our gifts and talents so people can find rest and hope. It depends on artisans to bring joy and healing. That’s what my creations are meant to do; heal broken hearts and give people inspiration for going through their experiences with courage, faith and knowledge that God heals.
Healing Cultural Artifacts 